I miss you more than I remember you

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“I miss you more than I remember you."
~ Ocean Voung

Some days it’s hard to breathe:
hard to go on living
when you’re not here
anymore

hard to laugh
to find pleasure
in other things

Some days I wake up
screaming
calling for you
asking you to save me

from myself
asking you
to make me live

how come I die
with each love I lose?

how many deaths
can a man die
before
he
ceases to
exist?

I miss you

I miss the taste
of your skin;
the curve
of your back

the calluses
in your palm

I miss

how you made me feel
how your

touch made me come alive
I miss us

I miss—

I don't remember you
anymore.

My memory of your face
is hazy now &
it’s difficult to connect
the dots &
remember how you looked.

but I remember how you
made me feel.

More than that,
I remember how you
loved me.