The girl he met vs the girl he left
one day, when we're bent and weary
& our spines are laden, with untold stories
we'll talk of the girl
with fiery fire in her eyes
how her smile was like that of an angel
saying:
When you fall in the forest,
and there's no one to catch you
I will be there to hold you
i.
yesterday I told my therapist
that I felt like dying.
that it feels like my body is fighting
to hold on to a reason;
one reason to stay
to live
"the future is enough reason
for you to stay."
but it's not, I say,
it's not.
when the light goes out
in my eyes
and there's no one to
come home to
no one
to
love
no one to
say goodbye
is that living
or
dying?
ii.
I miss who I used to be
before you came along
and loved me more than I could
iii.
I’ve died a thousand deaths.
one, when you left
two, when I left
three, when we left
four, when love left us
five,
every morning I wake up
and realize you’re not here.
iv.
I love you more than life
v.
you met a bubbly girl
you left a broken girl
I wish I never met you
